Depth of the Rain by Orin Drake
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        Chapter 10 - "One May Be Known to Ask, 'Why Me?'"


        Evyn raised an eyebrow as they approached after their big "adventure", seeing Roan and Shadow sitting civilly across from one another in the grass.  Just sitting.  Doing nothing but sitting and waiting for them, so it appeared.  He wasn't sure why he shouldn't feel completely at ease, if not elated, but... there was just something there.  Nothing big, though.  Obviously she'd held her own and he hadn't run away.  That last part could have been made better, but...  "Food!" he called cavalierly.
        Shadow looked up and appeared pleasantly surprised.  "Did the big fellas give you trouble?"
        "Yes."  Taerlyn stressed before her brother could say anything.  "They were fast."
        "We only got two..." Evyn admitted gracefully.  "But they're big."
        "Whatever works."  Shadow was rather impressed they'd gotten one, let alone two.  And the suckers were big.  Scary, fuzzy, fat little animals. 


 

        Taerlyn was clearly not present for the bleeding and butchering.  She didn't really... have interest in it.  Neither did Evyn, but he figured he was one of the "men" so he belonged in the immediate area, anyway.  Shadow herself never had experience with this sort of thing... but she'd seen a hell of a lot of it on TV.  Roan watched her carefully, doing absolutely everything but actually verbalizing his amusement.  So, upon her sharp suggestion that he make himself useful, he took over the skinning.  And, without too much surprise, he was very good at it.  What were they going to do?  Not take advantage of this situation?  So, Roan did all the work.  And Evyn was completely, utterly amazed.  Most certainly when the boy only handed the knife back by the blade afterward rather than taking to trying to gut the rest of them.
        Cooking the meat was another issue, however.  It wasn't fatty in general, but if it got too close to the flames it would spontaneously erupt in a strange purple fire.  Shadow found great amusement in that fact.  Eventually they discovered the proper distance at which to anchor the meat and let it cook, however.  Not without one more spontaneous combustion incident, but that wasn't so bad, really.
        The meat itself... well, it was meat.  It was one hell of a far cry from chicken.  Or beef.  Or pork or fish or anything remotely familiar to any of them.  But it wasn't bad.  Just... spicy in not the best of ways.  A lot better than what they had been eating, though, so they shut up and indulged.  At least it was tender and not greasy.  Shadow, never in her life one to use steak sauce, would have given her left shoe for a bottle of old A-1.
        Necessities taken care of and everything straightened up to the best of their ability given the circumstances, they headed out again.  Off, out into the world once more.  But this time Shadow had just a touch more hope for them.  Not any impossible expectations or anything, but... she felt better about things.  She didn't trust Roan any further than she could throw him, which she figured probably wasn't all that far anyway.  Scrawny boy though he was, he was probably quite a bit heavier than she was.  The thought of hurling the boy was somewhat satisfying, but that wasn't the point at hand.  At least he'd helped.  Without being asked, in fact.  Without being forced or threatened, or even lashing out afterward.  Astounding.  Worrying.
        Little by little, the ground they were traveling began to change underneath them.  The grass was thinning and the trees were getting smaller and more mangy looking.  Soon they were discovering little patches of sand with nothing at all growing around them.  Then there were little pits which eventually opened up into shallow gulches and even less hope of vegetation.  Headed for dryer land, it seemed.  Not a pleasant thought, but one they could do so little about that it hardly mattered.
        Hm.  There was one bad thing about this meat, Shadow found.  There was a piece of it wedged securely in the back of her teeth.  At first she pondered just reaching for any old stick but... who knows where they've been?  But she'd done it before.  A look at the twigs they were coming across, though, and they were all too dry and crumbly for the task at hand.  Instead, she meandered over to Sandy's side and rummaged in her backpack.  Hey, she'd packed blindly.  Maybe she'd thrown a toothpick in or something.
        "Huh."  Shadow commented, grasping something in one of the inner pockets that she hadn't realized had been filled.  A can of Coke.  Honest to god real name brand Coke.  Hot, but still in one piece.  What she'd give for a refrigerator...
        Roan watched her reaction closely.  She looked at that can almost hungrily, lustfully.  He glanced just to their left, where a long, shallow gulch lay in perfect position.  Daintily, as though he hadn't gone over the plan again and again in his mind before he carried it out, he "accidentally" hit her hand.
        Only one thought went through her mind as her grip loosened: Coke.  She dove for it, knowing if she was quick, she'd have no problems grasping it before it fell out of reach.  It may have been a relatively short fall to the bottom, but there was still the great possibility of breaking a bone; something they could not afford at this point in time.  She wasn't completely certain something like that could be healed so easily, and she sure as hell didn't care to find out.
        With the edges of her fingertips, she caught a hold of the esteemed can of Coca Cola and pulled herself away from the edge, standing back up as if nothing had happened.  Ignoring everyone and everything, she turned the can in her hand several times, then held it to her chest like a favorite stuffed animal.  Regardless of the blank looks she was receiving, she carefully placed the cherished item back in the safety of the bottom of her backpack.  Then, satisfied, she turned to Roan, who watched her actions with puzzled amusement.  "You are really starting to piss me off."  She announced.
        "Is that some kind of magical medicine?" he pretended not to be interested.
        "No.  It's Coca Cola.  Don't ever touch the Coca Cola.  I'll tear your freaking legs off and beat you with them, if you ever touch the Coca Cola again."  She paused to regain herself and glared at him.  "Besides, magic and medicine don't go together in my world."
        Evyn started to fear the Coca Cola.  "Uh... what is it for?"
        "Happiness."  She grinned emotionlessly, teeth gleaming.
        "A drug?" Taerlyn asked, half amazed and half amused.
        "Something like that..." she responded, petting her backpack lovingly.  Then, with the dirty look Sandy gave her, she began to pet the steed, instead.  "A good drug."
        "I was taught pain was the best drug."  Roan purred maliciously.
        "Second only to Coca Cola."  She returned the sentiment with a very wicked expression.  "Did I mention if you shake the can hard enough it will explode right in your hand..." she whispered gruffly, directing the comment toward the prisoner.
        That didn't sound... exceptionally safe.  But Evyn decided a great big blind leap of faith was better than anything else they had at the moment.  He made a mental note to stay away from the Coca-Cola.  Just in case.
        "I think we're really getting into the desert now."  Taerlyn said softly, looking further ahead at the completely disappearing plant life.  "We might want to bring some fire wood with us."
        Evyn stared at her for a moment.  "Won't it be hot in the desert?"
        "Not at night..."  She responded in a helpfully suggestive sort of manner.  "It gets cold in deserts at night."  She took a deep breath before continuing.  "Father taught me that."
        Being suddenly reminded of the dead parents they'd left behind made her brother's stomach twitch.  That's right; he remembered being told that long ago.  His father had come to the edge of the desert when he was just a boy himself, with his own father, to watch the wild horses back when they were still plentiful.  An old wound opened up and hurt again, stung, bled with emotion.  He took a deep breath, trying to still the nagging thoughts.  Now was not a time to mourn.  And certainly not with that demon boy watching.  "Yeah."  He answered simply.  "Let's get what we can, then."
        "Even you."  Shadow mouthed to the prisoner.
        He grinned and pretended to be a good little servant.  For now, this was his best bet.  He'd get food, a place to sleep, warmth in the cold, and even protection with living shields, should it come to that.  This place he was in now was certainly in his best interest.  Regardless of how sick it made him to help these idiots, it would simply make his life easier for a time.  That made it all a little more worth while.
        The "wood" was more a collection of thick twigs and chunks of bark.  It was better than nothing, of course.  Shadow wrapped what they'd come up with in one of the blankets and tied it onto Sandy's back.  She hoped sincerely the creature would know how to handle the sand.  She knew it wasn't easy for a horse, let alone one that had no horseshoes.
        And so once again the long walk began.  It seemed they'd decided to gather their necessities just in time, too; over only the course of three hills, the ground steadily changed from dirt and gravel into a black, glistening sand.  Desert indeed, the horizon was black meeting a blue sky.
        We're headed for a big bruise.  Shadow thought sardonically.  Miles upon endless miles of black sand.  Beautiful at first, but once they started to walk on it, it became a quick nightmare.  The first couple of miles were nothing special.  They sunk, all of them, every once in a while.  That was a bit disheartening.  At least it seemed Sandy was getting no more stuck than any of them at any given time.  The heat began to rise, but it wasn't so bad just yet.  The sand was absorbing most of it, though they knew soon that would not be a good thing.  It would be like walking across hot asphalt.  Although, Shadow liked to think, it would probably smell a little better.
        It was when they came to a place that seemed a lot more stable that their leader's inevitable bad luck began to overtake them.  Certainly at first, they were quite elated to find they were no longer sinking into the sand.  But then, increasingly, the ground seized.  It was the strangest thing.  Like the earth itself had a growling stomach.  There were these low tones, then movement below ground.  Just a little at first, once in a while.  Only enough for them to think they had experienced it.  Then a little more, a little louder.  The vibration was soon felt through their feet, and even made the sand seem to shiver a little in their immediate area.
        Sandy paused at one of the louder, harder tremors, glancing around.  They were somewhat trapped out there.  Going back did not seem like any better an option that going forward at that point.  The shaking seemed to have come from behind them that last time, so maybe that was a good sign.  Another moment of pause and Sandy began to walk again, slowly.
        It certainly gave Evyn shivers.  He'd never seen or felt anything remotely similar to the ground shaking before.  But as he glanced over at Roan, he saw something distinctly different--a knowing glint of satisfaction.  The two didn't mix.  Not until--
        Something was breaking the surface in front of them as though the sand were a vast ocean.  It was too fast, moving slick and smooth like a snake through water; too utterly frightening to have planned for.  Something rolled sand from itself and shot up directly in front of Shadow... taking her with it.
        Her companions were struck so utterly by surprise that they could do nothing more than watch this great, disgusting worm-like creature erupt from the surface of the sand.  It was like a giant, thick red-purple rope with bands of wiry hair between each body section, clasping the human form between coils.
        The thing lifted her high into the air and began to squeeze her midsection.  She clenched her teeth when the pain began, but it soon died into a desperate need for air.  She threw her head back and tried to breathe as the thing constricted again, harder and faster than before, winding itself around her chest.  The moment her head fell back limply, the end of the worm monster snapped open to reveal two large serpent teeth, both of which found quick and effective marks in the side of her neck.
        Evyn and Taerlyn glanced helplessly at one another in terrified shock.  Sandy was frankly so utterly freaked that her jaw just fell open.  But Roan stood there quite easily with his arms crossed, knowing exactly what the beast was.  He'd seen them a million times, being very effective for killing in the most painful, devastating way possible.  The first gush of venom would rush through the body and blind the victim (the "fear factor", his master had called it), then the second burst was perfectly bred to be so thick and acidic that it took hours to reach the heart and finally kill the victim, burning horrible streams of pain the entire way there.  He watched thoughtfully as the worm beast attacked, and wondered if it would really be in his best interest to save the bitch.  Certainly he'd hoped to be as loyal as he could manage until Aunger found him, then present his prizes and be well rewarded... but would it have been so bad to let his competition perish?  He sighed to himself and decided he would probably wind up with a punishment rather than a prize if he let her die.  He certainly surprised his captors when he pulled a sword from Sandy's back and chopped at the monster.
        The first burst of venom traveled through her body so quickly that she wasn't even aware of exactly what had happened, and by the time it had taken effect, Roan had already severed the worm in half.  She gasped and suddenly felt herself falling; then realized that she couldn't see it happening.  She couldn't see anything she understood with a hard swallow; her sight had been completely taken away.  The utter confusion distracted her from the pain only until she felt the rough impact with the ground. Then the searing of the second venom began.  She gasped and felt like her entire neck had been set on fire, gritting her teeth with a quiet, agonized hiss.  Great.  Fucking great.
        "What's happening?" Taerlyn whispered.
        "She's gotten herself bitten." Roan grumbled naturally.
        Evyn stared at him with hard eyes, realizing that he knew more about what had happened than they did.  "Do something!" he shouted.
        Roan looked back at him slowly, purposely making Shadow stand the agony in as much silence as she could manage.  Her focus on merely not making a sound of pain was so strong that she barely heard their voices, let alone their words... and the prisoner was enjoying it.  "You mean, remove the poison?"
        "Yes!" Evyn shouted.
        "You trust me to do that?" the wicked boy grinned.
        "Just do it."  Taerlyn growled with a Shadow-esque intensity.
        It was a very interesting pain, Shadow would think later, well after she was done suffering from it.  Her neck felt like it was baking; a million times worse than a strong acid burn, in a terrible heat unequaled by any whip or chain strike.  It was enough to completely make her forget about the blindness, though her eyes were already closed, teeth clenched tightly.  She somehow felt the air move dramatically beside her even through the rest of it, and stiffened.
        "What is it?  Don't you trust me?" Roan's evil voice sliced into her.  Before he gave her the chance to react, he slipped his hand under her head and gripped her hair in his fist, pulling her head back and exposing her throat.  In a swift, smooth movement, he pulled the knife she had given him and pressed the flat hard against the side of her neck right under the bite wounds.  Evenly, with a stinging pressure, he drew the blade upward slowly.
        To Evyn's amazement, he saw the white poison seep out of the holes, followed by two thin streams of blood.  He watched as Shadow unclenched her body, shivering in relief, and took a deep breath.  The pain wasn't completely gone, but the searing had been extinguished.  Only erratic pinpricks akin to a limb being woken up after a long time of circulation loss tormented her for the time being.
        Roan laughed that grating, bitter sound and wiped the venom away from her pierced throat with the back of his hand, then sheathed the knife without cleaning it.  "Am I redeemed?" he grinned through exposed fangs.
        "Enough to get food."  She responded.  "Now let the hell go."
        His taunting expression neither ceased nor moved.  "But I rather like it this way."  He leaned forward as he spoke, getting so close that Shadow could feel the heat of his breath on her jugular.
        "Let her go."  Evyn said sternly.
        The boy looked back at him, the grin dying into something of a distantly amused expression.  Seeing Evyn not move an inch from his demand, he then released her hair and got up without helping her.  She stayed on the ground, staring blindly at the sky, feeling the wonder of what had suddenly become so little pain.  "But she'll stay like that through the night at least."  Roan said quietly, very satisfied.
        "Like what?" Evyn demanded.
        "Blind."  Shadow stated dryly, still staring at the darkness that was her sky... ground, and whatever else.  "This isn't very fun."
        Taerlyn gasped and left the boys to battle it out on their own, kneeling next to Shadow.  "Are you... completely blind?" she asked with great worry, waving her hand over the distant eyes.
        "Yep."  She sighed.  "I knew I hated worms."  She paused and took a deep breath.  "One may be known to ask, 'Why me?'..."
        Evyn growled at Roan, something he didn't even known he had done.  The prisoner regarded him with a delicately wicked look and a simple, "I couldn't have helped that if I'd wanted to."
        "I doubt that."  Evyn said bitterly.
        Shadow lightly reached to the bite wounds on her neck and closed her eyes.  The blue fire came and went as usual, but still no eye sight.  It was disappointing but not unexpected, and she growled to herself in frustration.  She was just glad to have Sandy around to "handle" Roan for her should the need arise.
        The horse herself was still somewhat swaying in the desert breeze in shock.  Granted, she had seen a lot of odd and disturbing things in her time.  But never had she so much as imagined... that.  And now that Shadow was blind...  She shook her head and tried to regain herself.  She'd definitely need to watch that boy.  And, if need be, keep everyone from tearing him apart.  Until they could use him, that was.
        "You know," Taerlyn whispered, "Under other circumstances, this would be really funny."
        Shadow unwillingly felt herself grin.  "I knew you didn't like me much."
        "I really don't."  The girl joked with a small smile.  She put a hand behind Shadow's back and helped her to sit up.  Satisfied that she was okay in every other way, she stood and pulled their leader to a stand with her.
        Sandy softly pressed her nose into Shadow's questing open hand.  She snorted and bumped her chest lightly in a show of support and understanding, then laid at her feet.
        "I can't ride you, girl."  She said softly.  "That just wouldn't be fair."
        "Do you want to go tripping over everything?" Taerlyn asked.
        "But what about the weight?" she asked thin air in the general direction of Taerlyn.
        "She can carry Ter and I, plus supplies.  I think it'll be alright."  Evyn offered.  One eye on Roan, he carefully readjusted the blanket holding their firewood so there would be enough room for a passenger.
        She still looked uncertain, unwilling to be unfair and sit the entire time the others were walking in the heat, but sighed and gave in.  She definitely couldn't just go around tripping over everything and wandering in separate directions.  That just wouldn't work out.  All of the dunes they had to climb would probably just get her buried or slowing everyone down too much.  In a place with giant freak-worms, that probably wasn't a very good thing.  She slowly climbed on Sandy's back and wove her fingers into the soft mane.
        Though the steed lifted slowly and gently on purpose, Shadow discovered something else unpleasant about the poison.  "Oh, motion sickness.  What a lovely side effect."
        Roan chuckled darkly--until Evyn drew his fist back.  Shadow heard Taerlyn squeak as she rushed to hold her brother's hand, and heard a low growl from the demon boy himself.  She swallowed and could only guess what may have happened had Taerlyn not been watching closely.  She didn't blame Evyn at all; in fact quite wished Taerlyn hadn't interfered, but it probably would have been a lot more trouble than it was worth.  Quick thinker, that girl.  A hell of a lot stronger than she looked to keep Evyn's hand back, too.
        "Are you threatening me?" Roan's mocking voice rumbled.
        "Yes."  Evyn stated, obviously very aggravated.  It was a rare tone of voice for him.  "Yes I am."
        Roan's curt, coughing fit of laughter prompted Shadow's hand to reach to her side, draw her knife, and throw it.  She was quite surprised at her hand's reaction, as her brain had not told it to do anything but hang on.  She was more surprised not to hear a scream of pain from someone she hadn't meant to strike, but a dull thud and a sudden, complete silence.  She wouldn't have known that the dagger landed right in front of Roan's boot, thrust downward.  Nor would she have known just how much the action had genuinely surprised him.  He just stared down at the gleaming metal that had just barely left a crease in the leather.  Another inch, and he'd have been cost a toe permanently. 


 

        They walked.  And they walked.  And then they walked some more in silence, feeling much more of the effect of the black sand underneath them.  Over the moving dunes, the breezes having picked up greatly, getting a foot or a shoe temporarily stuck in the sand.  Every five or ten minutes, the wind would gust horribly and thrust the tiny grains into their faces, forcing all of them to kneel on the ground as Sandy had taught them by example.  It was slow going, but they kept moving.  They certainly couldn't go back.  Who knew what else was waiting for them.  Or tracking them.
        It was certainly a silent journey across the dunes for the rest of the day.  They didn't find a single plant, not even the tiniest old dried up weed along the way.  Even though Shadow wasn't able to see the landscape, it was a little depressing.  Though at least it gave her plenty of time to work that damn meat out of her teeth, not that that was a highlight or anything.  Fortunately, the motion sickness passed about an hour before the wind began to cool near the close of the day, calming enough so that the sand stopped slamming against their bodies.  Sure as hell made it easier to breathe and take a drink.
        Evyn sighed, seeing the sky begin to grow dark with twilight.  They would just have to make camp on top of one of the dunes and hope for the best during the night.  It was a terrible thought, possibly waking up to find everyone buried--or worse.  He shuddered to think of what other monsters may be lurking under the sands.  But sleep was quite vital for their continuing journey, so the choice was obvious.  He stopped at on top of a relatively flat topped hill, similar to every other damn pile of sand.  It would do.  He was too fed up and tired to keep going, and he was rather certain Sandy was starting to feel the same way. Removing the kindling and wood scraps, he set about making the fire.
        Shadow sat atop her steed with her eyes closed, feeling the breezes calmly pulsing all around her.  She listened intently to the crunching footsteps and sighed.  She'd rather have her sight back, but she was glad to be able to hear where everyone was.  She heard Evyn unload the wood, then felt Sandy lightly lay down for her.  As she hesitantly unlatched her fingers from the soft mane, she felt the hard callousness of Roan's fingers brush her shoulder; he'd extended his hand to her.  Obviously more than a little unsure of his tricks, she stared at him with distant eyes.  But, to her surprise, he took her hand and pulled her off anyway.  Not violently, but simply uncaring.
        Evyn watched on, one hand white knuckled around a stick that was splintering in his grasp, prepared to draw Roan's blood should he do anything stupid.  Astoundingly, he found that their prisoner had actually helped Shadow off and left her alone to lean on Sandy's back for support.  That boy was clearly planning something to annoy her, and Evyn didn't intend for it to go on.  He walked over himself instead (glaring wickedly at Roan who only looked back in dark amusement), and very carefully took Shadow's free hand.  He cringed a little as he did, hoping and praying she'd know it was him.
        Lucky for him, she had somewhat surrendered to the blindness and was beginning to adjust to her other senses.  The hand was not that of a cruel Roan, but the worried and gentle hand of Evyn.  Faced with his kindness, she couldn't exactly refuse the help.  With a swallow, she somewhat unwillingly accepted it.  She was grateful for his help, certainly, but also just generally pissed at having to be helped at all.  It was not a fun place to be.
        He smiled lightly and slowly lead her over to sit by the firewood pile Taerlyn had taken over.  He stopped and lowered his hand gently, helping her to sit, then stared back at Roan disdainfully.  The demon boy only stared back with a wicked grin, seeming to still be watching for some sort of advantage.
        Shadow blinked, and remembered.  As she'd grasped the Coke, she also thought she felt something else...  "Evyn?"
        "Yes?" he responded.
        "Can you get my backpack?" she asked softly.
        He was immediately met with a soft horse nose.  He pet Sandy's forehead gently and went about untying all of the portables from her, of which she was exceedingly glad to be rid of for a while.  He placed Shadow's backpack in front of her and watched.
        She had hoped very much that the inside pocket had not been disturbed or crushed.  She closed her eyes--useless anyway--and fumbled inside.  Finding the zipper, she rummaged a little more until her hands passed over one of her prized possessions that she had forgotten about for far too long.  She pulled out a small padded box object, flipped the snap open with her fingernail, and produced from inside her exceptionally expensive, all black, lightly mirrored sun glasses.  Unfolding then placing them securely over her eyes, she sighed quietly.  She'd made her parents buy them for her as a personal joke for herself.  Certainly they were the best looking of all of the sun glasses she had ever seen, but to her delight they were almost the most expensive, and it was very satisfying to respond innocently to the look her parents had given her when she'd put them on for the first time.  Chameleon Shadow had merely gotten away with that one little thing, at least.  "Better."  She stated quietly.
        Evyn stared, and all was silent.  She looked... more demonic than usual.  Tight, worn black jeans, ripped up GN'R shirt, black and blue hair and really nice black sun glasses... there was something exceptionally pleasing to the eye about that.  There was also something very wrong with that.  Not in the right and wrong sense, but in the world separation, gateway, way of life sense.
        Roan was impressed with that even more vicious than usual look, but he neither showed it nor admitted it to himself.  He couldn't bring himself to picture what kind of a household she had grown up in, to become... that...  Although, now that her eyes were covered, he felt he could get away with anything.
        "Those are quite neat."  Taerlyn finally broke the silence with an awed voice.  Colored glass over one's eyes was just not something they had ever encountered before.
        "The best of the best."  Shadow announced with a hollow grin.
        "What are they for?  Usually, I mean."  Evyn asked curiously.  He only assumed she had never been blind before.
        "Protection from bright sunlight.  But I think they just look really good.  Maybe not on myself, but..." she trailed off, desperate to keep a sense of good humor about her so she wouldn't snap.
        "Oh no, it looks good."  Roan growled, a full ear to ear grin on his face.  He stepped to the side just in time to avoid Sandy's annoyed backward kick.
        "Good to know."  Shadow stated, a slight growl in her voice.  If she couldn't see, at least she wouldn't have to have others stare at her blank eyes.  She sat, feeling rather helpless and all in all just the slightest bit upset, and waited for whatever the hell she was waiting for.  At that point, she really didn't care if she were waiting for a train to hit her.  She tapped her foot, let sand fall between her fingers, did everything to keep herself busy.  But it only took a moment for her to get completely, absolutely, unstoppably irritated, and a little savage growl escaped her throat.
        Taerlyn, kneeling beside her and using the flint on a sword, almost felt a wall of annoyance.  Shadow apologetically cleared her throat, but the grumble of absolute animosity toward not being able to see--sitting there doing nothing, wondering how long it would take to get her vision back--had already been sounded, and obviously so.  Taerlyn didn't say a word, and after a moment, went about lighting the fire again.
        Shadow could take no more of sitting.  Silently, she stood up, took a deep breath, turned on her heel, and very slowly began to walk outward.  She had no idea where the hell she was going, but she just absolutely had to go.  Sandy kicked up a cloud of dust and followed right by her side, letting Shadow place a hand on her flank to be lead by.  The siblings stopped and watched them go, confident that Sandy would take care of her... but worried none the less.
        Roan watched her disturbing little piece of self-induced helplessness and grinned that insane, evil grin of waiting and watching, ready to do something, sometime during her blindness.  Evyn, on the other hand, seemed to feel his heart sink just slightly.  He was really starting to wonder if she was being driven mad.  Or, at least, more so mad than she already was, she'd probably have suggested.  He looked at Taerlyn, calmly unpacking their beds, and wondered what she was thinking.
        She answered his thoughts as though they had been vocally directed toward her.  "She's got a lot to cool off from.  Besides, Sandy will bring her back safely."
        He nodded, knowing what she said was true.  It didn't really ease his concern, however.  He looked out to see the steed's head disappear behind a dune, and tried his best to simply relax.  It proved impossible with Roan deciding to sit just a few feet from him on the other side of the fire, flipping his dagger over and over and catching the blade harmlessly between his fingers without fail.
        Silent glances and glares repeated their plays as long minutes passed.  The stars became brighter, the only sounds that of breathing and the crackling of the fire.  And then a distinct pounding.
        At first, Evyn's heart stopped; fear overtook him and his hands grew into mush.  It took several seconds (an eternity when your heart is stopped) to realize that the dust cloud coming toward them was headed by a swiftly galloping Sandy, finally neighing  her arrival as she almost seemed to float just above the surface of the earth.  Looking around, Evyn saw that both Taerlyn and Roan had experienced moments of panic themselves, their breath quite fast as they began to calm again.  It seemed Sandy had tried to make Shadow feel better with a ride, or at least scare the crap out of everyone for a bit of a darkly deserved laugh.
        Incredibly, Sandy's plan had worked; at least a little bit.  She slid to a halt, sand flying absolutely everywhere, and trotted like a champion racer the last few yards.  The way the steed had moved, how she recalled her against the color of the sand, Shadow was certain she had come from around the area.  Sandy had helped her to fly, to forget her blindness for just a little while and accomplish the impossible.  It had really felt like flying, soaring over the earth high in the air, and had been so... breath taking...
        As Sandy stopped, though, Shadow felt like groaning.  She loathed having to be helped off the horse, loathed having to be seated, and dreaded even more her companions' reactions to her possible slips.  What about drinking?  What if she missed her mouth?
        She didn't want them to think she wasn't completely thankful.  She really was... but she was still incredibly annoyed with having to be helped.  She was the one who should be helping, she was the one who started them off on their journey.  She shouldn't be the one having to be lead.  Still, there was no choice in the matter, and she closed her eyes as though it would help as Sandy lightly laid down.  Oddly enough, she realized she had experienced no motion sickness during Sandy's kind gift of a wild run, but now that things moved slower, her stomach seemed to... "flex"...
        Somewhat unnerved to see Shadow still had her sun glasses on in the dying light, Evyn swallowed and stood up to help her.  He had only assumed what she was thinking, but he knew deep down that he assumed right.  Any lashing out she did was directed toward no one in particular, but he'd hoped he wouldn't have to be a part of it.  He saw what she was capable of toward even slight annoyances.  Killing the guard that ripped her shirt came back vividly... but he was certain that couldn't happen to him.  At least, certain enough to offer his hand again.  She'd known it was him last time, after all.
        She reached out halfway, then waited for Evyn's hand to grasp hers.  It was a light, almost trembling hold, and she was incredibly glad for what appeared to be his understanding.  She slipped off of Sandy's back with a grateful tap on her neck and let Evyn lead her to the fire and to sitting.  She heard a very soft cackle next to her, and knew of course that Roan was close.
        "I assume you know who you're sitting by."  Evyn said rather flatly.  While he was concerned that the prisoner now had an advantage over Shadow, he also knew that any lashing out she did was put to better use this way.  The thought was almost enough to make him beam.
        She nodded.  "Supposedly when you lose one sense, the others become stronger."
        "How's you sense of direction?" he tried to joke as he sat between Roan and Taerlyn, making certain he had plenty of space from the demon boy.
        "I've figured out more or less how to get around."  She said quietly with a light smile, then paused for a long time.  "Now I just have to figure out why you bothered letting me live."  She said to no one in particular.
        But Roan caught it.  As if he had a choice to ignore her.  "Let you die?  Am I that kind of person?" he growled sarcastically.
        "What's your reason, Mr. Prisoner?  Hmm?" Shadow pushed, almost politely.
        "Loyalty of course."  Evyn answered for him very flatly.
        Roan mocked a terrible smile as he looked over at Evyn, then back at Shadow.  "Just call it... assurance of a favor for later."
        "Of that, we shall see."  She responded in a normal tone.  She lifted the sun glasses with her thumb and rubbed her eyes gently, glad and surprised to actually see a tiny bit of light starting to come through.  It certainly wasn't enough to see by, but it gave her hope.  It was more like seeing through a filthy, scratched window, but... hey, that was something.  She placed the sun glasses atop her head and stared straight into the fire, passing a hand over her eyes to assure herself she could make the distinction between dark and light.  "Gives my hands the shapes of angels..." she whispered to herself.
        That phrase made Roan shiver, and he didn't like his accidental sign of weakness at all.  It reminded him of Aunger, that dark side he showed all of the time... the only side he ever really had, after all.
        Evyn noticed that shiver with great satisfaction.  "What was that?" he asked Shadow.
        She spent another few seconds passing her hand in front of her face before she responded, "'The Hanging Garden'.  It's an old favorite of mine, though I'll never be sure why..."  Her voice became startlingly distant, like an echo of a dream when you know you can get the whole thing if you can just remember a small part of it.  "'Creatures kissing in the rain/ Shapeless in the dark again..." she paused with a breath, "Cover my face as the animals die...'"
        Again Roan unwillingly shivered, but so did Evyn.  The words themselves seemed to have spectacular effect.
        "I felt that, too."  Shadow admitted quietly.
        Taerlyn finally spoke up, uncomfortable with all of the shivering going on around her.  While she felt that great and godawful discomfort... it hadn't affected her quite as much.  "So how are your eyes?"
        "I know where the light source is... and that's it."  She answered, spectacularly unsuccessful at being cheery.  "I don't think I've ever been so annoyed before."
        "Hard to believe."  Roan commented.
        Evyn glared at him for many seconds before peering back at Shadow.  His anger had been building too long to ignore.  "Should we stay up for a while and... watch?"
        "No need."  She sighed.  "Sandy will take care of him after I go to bed."  She finished the last word with a quick nod, the sun glasses dropping back over her eyes.  She lightly pressed them farther back with her finger.
        Everyone glanced at the sleeping horse a few feet away.  She lay there looking quite comfortable, kicking her right rear leg now and again in dreaming.  And so would be the situation--Sandy would sleep until the rest of them were ready to go to bed and spend most of the night making certain Roan didn't kill them.  Not the best arrangement, but effective.
        "You two get to bed."  Shadow ordered gently.  "I want to stay up for a while."
        "Not too long, I hope."  Roan grinned madly.
        "First thing I will do when I can see again is take a good swing at you."  She announced without the slightest hint of humor, eyes still on the flames though she could barely see them.  It was actually enough to surprise all of her traveling companions, though she couldn't see the looks on their faces.  A bad mood was truly rare for her, regardless of the situation.  Of course it was completely understandable, suddenly being blind for who the hell knew how long (Roan certainly wasn't telling), traveling through a world she was still adjusting to, with a psycho who would undoubtedly continue to make things difficult.  She just wanted to hurl something at Roan's head and see the impact.
        "No one's stopping you right now."  The demon boy teased with his chalkboard tone.
        Again Evyn made a fist, but wasn't close enough to use it.  He gritted his teeth and glared at the monster thing that had almost destroyed their little "family" what seemed like a countless number of times.  He sat there as civilly as he could manage, fist dropped into his lap, trying not to think about it, just looking away.
        Shadow knew what was happening without having to see it, and everyone else seemed to understand that.  She sat there somewhat helplessly, but somehow incredibly defensive.  She had nothing to do, nothing to say, and yet it was enough to keep everyone satisfied at the moment.  She pulled the sun glasses down just enough so that she could see the flames, then placed her hand in them and felt the ungodly burning, a pain beyond pains, and healed herself promptly.  It was an act to assure herself she was still there, still alive, that the world hadn't left her behind.  An odd sentiment, and a much more interesting action to those who watched.  Roan felt very light headed for a moment, seeing her eyes; looking at her actions and seeing those eyes that knew that pain in its various stages... before the shades were pressed back against her head to conceal them once again.
        Taerlyn wanted so badly to demand what she'd done that for, why she wanted to experience that pain, healing powers or not; but something stopped her.  It felt like another wall in front of her question, blocking it from so much as coming out at all.  She swallowed and watched Shadow's hidden eyes trail off into a nothingness of deep, unsatisfactory memories and things that haven't happened yet.
        Evyn shivered again, remembering the lines she had recited moments ago.  A great many, countless many things were very disturbing about their journey.  For some reason, no more so than those simple words.
        Something about the flames... something in the flames caught Shadow's attention.  For just a split second, less than that really, she saw great huge claws. Dragon claws... her mind suggested softly.  They had been there but not there, as so many other things, and she locked them away in her memory without a single acknowledgment.  "Are you two going to get any sleep tonight?" she asked kindly.
        The siblings looked at one another before Evyn answered.  "I guess we should try."
        She nodded.  "I'll be alright, as I said.  I'm just going to sit up for a little while."
        He nodded back, certain if she couldn't see it, she could feel it.  "Good night then, Shadow."
        "Goodnight, Evyn."  She responded almost with a normal good humor.  "Goodnight, Ter."
        "Good night, Shadow."  Taerlyn responded, hoping that she would be alright.  Upon that, brother and sister got up and went to their respective beds without another word.
        Shadow distastefully thought about how she'd find her bed.  Worse yet, how would she go to the bathroom in a few hours?  She dropped her head just a little and thought. She'd hoped she wasn't missing too much in the glorious stars, as there was nothing but open space all around them and nothing to block their brightness.  In the end, she wasn't really all that concerned, but she was definitely rather annoyed.  She thought about taking sight for granted, and ultimately decided she never took it for granted, really; she just never made a point to think about it to death before.  Her thoughts turned to the journey behind them, the possible journey ahead, and calmed just a little as she heard the siblings' breathing shift into deep, dreamless sleep.
        Roan saw a wonderful chance to bother the girl, and took it immediately.  He scooted closer beside her, close enough for either of them to reach out and give the other a good powerful hit, and stared at her quietly.  After several long minutes of staring out into nothing, Shadow finally put the sun glasses atop her head again and looked at him with blind eyes, not seeing him but knowing where he was just the same.  "What."  It was a devastatingly clear statement.
        "I did save your life."  He responded in a viciously playful voice, a growl emanating from the depths of his throat.
        "I know."  She answered in that same clear, emotionless tone.
        "I should think you'd be grateful."  He pressed.
        It may have been a blind glare, but it was a slightly above standard wicked look, directed right into and through the demon boy sitting next to her.  Instead of attacking, as Roan expected, she simply asked, civilly but still very much annoyed, "You've seen those things before?"
        He was puzzled at first by no attack, but decided maybe he just needed to try harder.  "They were some of Aunger's favorite pets.  Bred to cause the most horrible pain and fear during death..."
        "Why did you learn how to remove the venom?" she interrupted.
        "Standard teaching."  He responded simply.  "While the guards were ravaging villages in the fields and valleys, the sand worms were slowly destroying the desert dwellers."  He forced a distinct pleasure out of his voice as he talked about the horrors he had seen and taken part in.
        "Was that one of his pets that bit me?" she asked quietly.
        He grinned.  "No.  That one seems to have been a bastard."  He paused and watched her closely.  "It's fun being helpless, isn't it?" he growled softly, hand reaching silently for the blade which still held a little of the agonizing poison.
        She didn't know what she had done until she felt the warmth on her fingertips.  Apparently to her (and what Roan would piece together as he lay there staring up at her), she had turned and clawed from the back of his neck to as far down on his chest as his clothes allowed, tearing four streams of blood and staining his shirt.  She hadn't meant to do it, she honestly hadn't--she had planned simply to growl at him.  She only realized then, as she was thinking out what had just happened, that she was growling ferociously, deeply, her teeth exposed in a wolfish display of vengeance.  It wasn't that she was at all sorry for her actions, but she almost felt badly about attacking him when she hadn't the real drive to do so.  Though, had she allowed him more time, he probably would have given her ample reasons.  She forced her lips down and wiped her bloodstained fingers across his already stained shirt, shoving him rather strongly backward.  Then, casually rubbing her eyes, she wondered if seeing those dragon claws earlier had anything to do with her actions.  It seemed the closer they got to wherever it was they were supposed to go, the more nightmares she had.  The more vicious she was becoming, whether she planned to be or not.
        Roan realized as he healed himself that he shouldn't have been surprised by her actions.  He had also begun to see the pattern of her slightly more wicked moments rising.  He growled back softly at her, but made no move to return her sentiment.  He was still in easy reach of her, after all, and assumed she would not hesitate to kick him, hard.  And most likely keep kicking him.
        Amazingly enough, that otherworldly growl did not wake either Evyn or Taerlyn.  They both still lay in their beds, breathing heavily as though nothing had happened.  Shadow was glad for that.  She sighed deeply, trying to force her heart to slow down, her blood from pulsing excitedly through her body.  She so, so very much wanted to kill him.  But slowly, painfully... and in a way, it was disturbing even to her.  She simply glanced at him with blind eyes, flipped her sunglasses back down, and waited for him to take the hint and go to his bed.
        He stared at her, unsatisfied with his performance; but decided that was definitely enough for the night. Just wait until the poison passes out of your body... he thought hollowly, standing up and walking to his bed.
        She sighed.  She was thirsty, but she wasn't certain where the water was.  She was tired, exhausted, but she didn't really want to sleep.  She just wanted to put her hands in the fire again.  So, as all went to bed, she placed both hands in the flames and felt them burn.
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