Depth of the Rain by Orin Drake A completed novel, available
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Chapter 10 - "One May Be
Known to Ask, 'Why Me?'"
Evyn
raised
an eyebrow as they approached after their big "adventure",
seeing
Roan and Shadow sitting civilly across from one another in the
grass.
Just sitting. Doing nothing but sitting and waiting for them, so
it appeared. He wasn't sure why he shouldn't feel
completely
at ease, if not elated, but... there was just something there.
Nothing
big, though. Obviously she'd held her own and he hadn't run
away.
That last part could have been made better, but... "Food!" he
called
cavalierly.
Taerlyn
was
clearly not present for the bleeding and butchering. She
didn't
really... have interest in it. Neither did Evyn, but he figured
he
was one of the "men" so he belonged in the immediate area,
anyway.
Shadow herself never had experience with this sort of thing... but
she'd
seen a hell of a lot of it on TV. Roan watched her carefully,
doing
absolutely everything but actually verbalizing his amusement. So,
upon her sharp suggestion that he make himself useful, he took over the
skinning. And, without too much surprise, he was very good at
it.
What were they going to do? Not take advantage of this
situation?
So, Roan did all the work. And Evyn was completely, utterly
amazed.
Most certainly when the boy only handed the knife back by the blade
afterward
rather than taking to trying to gut the rest of them.
It was certainly a silent journey across the dunes for the rest of the day. They didn't find a single plant, not even the tiniest old dried up weed along the way. Even though Shadow wasn't able to see the landscape, it was a little depressing. Though at least it gave her plenty of time to work that damn meat out of her teeth, not that that was a highlight or anything. Fortunately, the motion sickness passed about an hour before the wind began to cool near the close of the day, calming enough so that the sand stopped slamming against their bodies. Sure as hell made it easier to breathe and take a drink. Evyn sighed, seeing the sky begin to grow dark with twilight. They would just have to make camp on top of one of the dunes and hope for the best during the night. It was a terrible thought, possibly waking up to find everyone buried--or worse. He shuddered to think of what other monsters may be lurking under the sands. But sleep was quite vital for their continuing journey, so the choice was obvious. He stopped at on top of a relatively flat topped hill, similar to every other damn pile of sand. It would do. He was too fed up and tired to keep going, and he was rather certain Sandy was starting to feel the same way. Removing the kindling and wood scraps, he set about making the fire. Shadow sat atop her steed with her eyes closed, feeling the breezes calmly pulsing all around her. She listened intently to the crunching footsteps and sighed. She'd rather have her sight back, but she was glad to be able to hear where everyone was. She heard Evyn unload the wood, then felt Sandy lightly lay down for her. As she hesitantly unlatched her fingers from the soft mane, she felt the hard callousness of Roan's fingers brush her shoulder; he'd extended his hand to her. Obviously more than a little unsure of his tricks, she stared at him with distant eyes. But, to her surprise, he took her hand and pulled her off anyway. Not violently, but simply uncaring. Evyn watched on, one hand white knuckled around a stick that was splintering in his grasp, prepared to draw Roan's blood should he do anything stupid. Astoundingly, he found that their prisoner had actually helped Shadow off and left her alone to lean on Sandy's back for support. That boy was clearly planning something to annoy her, and Evyn didn't intend for it to go on. He walked over himself instead (glaring wickedly at Roan who only looked back in dark amusement), and very carefully took Shadow's free hand. He cringed a little as he did, hoping and praying she'd know it was him. Lucky for him, she had somewhat surrendered to the blindness and was beginning to adjust to her other senses. The hand was not that of a cruel Roan, but the worried and gentle hand of Evyn. Faced with his kindness, she couldn't exactly refuse the help. With a swallow, she somewhat unwillingly accepted it. She was grateful for his help, certainly, but also just generally pissed at having to be helped at all. It was not a fun place to be. He smiled lightly and slowly lead her over to sit by the firewood pile Taerlyn had taken over. He stopped and lowered his hand gently, helping her to sit, then stared back at Roan disdainfully. The demon boy only stared back with a wicked grin, seeming to still be watching for some sort of advantage. Shadow blinked, and remembered. As she'd grasped the Coke, she also thought she felt something else... "Evyn?" "Yes?" he responded. "Can you get my backpack?" she asked softly. He was immediately met with a soft horse nose. He pet Sandy's forehead gently and went about untying all of the portables from her, of which she was exceedingly glad to be rid of for a while. He placed Shadow's backpack in front of her and watched. She had hoped very much that the inside pocket had not been disturbed or crushed. She closed her eyes--useless anyway--and fumbled inside. Finding the zipper, she rummaged a little more until her hands passed over one of her prized possessions that she had forgotten about for far too long. She pulled out a small padded box object, flipped the snap open with her fingernail, and produced from inside her exceptionally expensive, all black, lightly mirrored sun glasses. Unfolding then placing them securely over her eyes, she sighed quietly. She'd made her parents buy them for her as a personal joke for herself. Certainly they were the best looking of all of the sun glasses she had ever seen, but to her delight they were almost the most expensive, and it was very satisfying to respond innocently to the look her parents had given her when she'd put them on for the first time. Chameleon Shadow had merely gotten away with that one little thing, at least. "Better." She stated quietly. Evyn stared, and all was silent. She looked... more demonic than usual. Tight, worn black jeans, ripped up GN'R shirt, black and blue hair and really nice black sun glasses... there was something exceptionally pleasing to the eye about that. There was also something very wrong with that. Not in the right and wrong sense, but in the world separation, gateway, way of life sense. Roan was impressed with that even more vicious than usual look, but he neither showed it nor admitted it to himself. He couldn't bring himself to picture what kind of a household she had grown up in, to become... that... Although, now that her eyes were covered, he felt he could get away with anything. "Those are quite neat." Taerlyn finally broke the silence with an awed voice. Colored glass over one's eyes was just not something they had ever encountered before. "The best of the best." Shadow announced with a hollow grin. "What are they for? Usually, I mean." Evyn asked curiously. He only assumed she had never been blind before. "Protection from bright sunlight. But I think they just look really good. Maybe not on myself, but..." she trailed off, desperate to keep a sense of good humor about her so she wouldn't snap. "Oh no, it looks good." Roan growled, a full ear to ear grin on his face. He stepped to the side just in time to avoid Sandy's annoyed backward kick. "Good to know." Shadow stated, a slight growl in her voice. If she couldn't see, at least she wouldn't have to have others stare at her blank eyes. She sat, feeling rather helpless and all in all just the slightest bit upset, and waited for whatever the hell she was waiting for. At that point, she really didn't care if she were waiting for a train to hit her. She tapped her foot, let sand fall between her fingers, did everything to keep herself busy. But it only took a moment for her to get completely, absolutely, unstoppably irritated, and a little savage growl escaped her throat. Taerlyn, kneeling beside her and using the flint on a sword, almost felt a wall of annoyance. Shadow apologetically cleared her throat, but the grumble of absolute animosity toward not being able to see--sitting there doing nothing, wondering how long it would take to get her vision back--had already been sounded, and obviously so. Taerlyn didn't say a word, and after a moment, went about lighting the fire again. Shadow could take no more of sitting. Silently, she stood up, took a deep breath, turned on her heel, and very slowly began to walk outward. She had no idea where the hell she was going, but she just absolutely had to go. Sandy kicked up a cloud of dust and followed right by her side, letting Shadow place a hand on her flank to be lead by. The siblings stopped and watched them go, confident that Sandy would take care of her... but worried none the less. Roan watched her disturbing little piece of self-induced helplessness and grinned that insane, evil grin of waiting and watching, ready to do something, sometime during her blindness. Evyn, on the other hand, seemed to feel his heart sink just slightly. He was really starting to wonder if she was being driven mad. Or, at least, more so mad than she already was, she'd probably have suggested. He looked at Taerlyn, calmly unpacking their beds, and wondered what she was thinking. She answered his thoughts as though they had been vocally directed toward her. "She's got a lot to cool off from. Besides, Sandy will bring her back safely." He nodded, knowing what she said was true. It didn't really ease his concern, however. He looked out to see the steed's head disappear behind a dune, and tried his best to simply relax. It proved impossible with Roan deciding to sit just a few feet from him on the other side of the fire, flipping his dagger over and over and catching the blade harmlessly between his fingers without fail. Silent glances and glares repeated their plays as long minutes passed. The stars became brighter, the only sounds that of breathing and the crackling of the fire. And then a distinct pounding. At first, Evyn's heart stopped; fear overtook him and his hands grew into mush. It took several seconds (an eternity when your heart is stopped) to realize that the dust cloud coming toward them was headed by a swiftly galloping Sandy, finally neighing her arrival as she almost seemed to float just above the surface of the earth. Looking around, Evyn saw that both Taerlyn and Roan had experienced moments of panic themselves, their breath quite fast as they began to calm again. It seemed Sandy had tried to make Shadow feel better with a ride, or at least scare the crap out of everyone for a bit of a darkly deserved laugh. Incredibly, Sandy's plan had worked; at least a little bit. She slid to a halt, sand flying absolutely everywhere, and trotted like a champion racer the last few yards. The way the steed had moved, how she recalled her against the color of the sand, Shadow was certain she had come from around the area. Sandy had helped her to fly, to forget her blindness for just a little while and accomplish the impossible. It had really felt like flying, soaring over the earth high in the air, and had been so... breath taking... As Sandy stopped, though, Shadow felt like groaning. She loathed having to be helped off the horse, loathed having to be seated, and dreaded even more her companions' reactions to her possible slips. What about drinking? What if she missed her mouth? She didn't want them to think she wasn't completely thankful. She really was... but she was still incredibly annoyed with having to be helped. She was the one who should be helping, she was the one who started them off on their journey. She shouldn't be the one having to be lead. Still, there was no choice in the matter, and she closed her eyes as though it would help as Sandy lightly laid down. Oddly enough, she realized she had experienced no motion sickness during Sandy's kind gift of a wild run, but now that things moved slower, her stomach seemed to... "flex"... Somewhat unnerved to see Shadow still had her sun glasses on in the dying light, Evyn swallowed and stood up to help her. He had only assumed what she was thinking, but he knew deep down that he assumed right. Any lashing out she did was directed toward no one in particular, but he'd hoped he wouldn't have to be a part of it. He saw what she was capable of toward even slight annoyances. Killing the guard that ripped her shirt came back vividly... but he was certain that couldn't happen to him. At least, certain enough to offer his hand again. She'd known it was him last time, after all. She reached out halfway, then waited for Evyn's hand to grasp hers. It was a light, almost trembling hold, and she was incredibly glad for what appeared to be his understanding. She slipped off of Sandy's back with a grateful tap on her neck and let Evyn lead her to the fire and to sitting. She heard a very soft cackle next to her, and knew of course that Roan was close. "I assume you know who you're sitting by." Evyn said rather flatly. While he was concerned that the prisoner now had an advantage over Shadow, he also knew that any lashing out she did was put to better use this way. The thought was almost enough to make him beam. She nodded. "Supposedly when you lose one sense, the others become stronger." "How's you sense of direction?" he tried to joke as he sat between Roan and Taerlyn, making certain he had plenty of space from the demon boy. "I've figured out more or less how to get around." She said quietly with a light smile, then paused for a long time. "Now I just have to figure out why you bothered letting me live." She said to no one in particular. But Roan caught it. As if he had a choice to ignore her. "Let you die? Am I that kind of person?" he growled sarcastically. "What's your reason, Mr. Prisoner? Hmm?" Shadow pushed, almost politely. "Loyalty of course." Evyn answered for him very flatly. Roan mocked a terrible smile as he looked over at Evyn, then back at Shadow. "Just call it... assurance of a favor for later." "Of that, we shall see." She responded in a normal tone. She lifted the sun glasses with her thumb and rubbed her eyes gently, glad and surprised to actually see a tiny bit of light starting to come through. It certainly wasn't enough to see by, but it gave her hope. It was more like seeing through a filthy, scratched window, but... hey, that was something. She placed the sun glasses atop her head and stared straight into the fire, passing a hand over her eyes to assure herself she could make the distinction between dark and light. "Gives my hands the shapes of angels..." she whispered to herself. That phrase made Roan shiver, and he didn't like his accidental sign of weakness at all. It reminded him of Aunger, that dark side he showed all of the time... the only side he ever really had, after all. Evyn noticed that shiver with great satisfaction. "What was that?" he asked Shadow. She spent another few seconds passing her hand in front of her face before she responded, "'The Hanging Garden'. It's an old favorite of mine, though I'll never be sure why..." Her voice became startlingly distant, like an echo of a dream when you know you can get the whole thing if you can just remember a small part of it. "'Creatures kissing in the rain/ Shapeless in the dark again..." she paused with a breath, "Cover my face as the animals die...'" Again Roan unwillingly shivered, but so did Evyn. The words themselves seemed to have spectacular effect. "I felt that, too." Shadow admitted quietly. Taerlyn finally spoke up, uncomfortable with all of the shivering going on around her. While she felt that great and godawful discomfort... it hadn't affected her quite as much. "So how are your eyes?" "I know where the light source is... and that's it." She answered, spectacularly unsuccessful at being cheery. "I don't think I've ever been so annoyed before." "Hard to believe." Roan commented. Evyn glared at him for many seconds before peering back at Shadow. His anger had been building too long to ignore. "Should we stay up for a while and... watch?" "No need." She sighed. "Sandy will take care of him after I go to bed." She finished the last word with a quick nod, the sun glasses dropping back over her eyes. She lightly pressed them farther back with her finger. Everyone glanced at the sleeping horse a few feet away. She lay there looking quite comfortable, kicking her right rear leg now and again in dreaming. And so would be the situation--Sandy would sleep until the rest of them were ready to go to bed and spend most of the night making certain Roan didn't kill them. Not the best arrangement, but effective. "You two get to bed." Shadow ordered gently. "I want to stay up for a while." "Not too long, I hope." Roan grinned madly. "First thing I will do when I can see again is take a good swing at you." She announced without the slightest hint of humor, eyes still on the flames though she could barely see them. It was actually enough to surprise all of her traveling companions, though she couldn't see the looks on their faces. A bad mood was truly rare for her, regardless of the situation. Of course it was completely understandable, suddenly being blind for who the hell knew how long (Roan certainly wasn't telling), traveling through a world she was still adjusting to, with a psycho who would undoubtedly continue to make things difficult. She just wanted to hurl something at Roan's head and see the impact. "No one's stopping you right now." The demon boy teased with his chalkboard tone. Again Evyn made a fist, but wasn't close enough to use it. He gritted his teeth and glared at the monster thing that had almost destroyed their little "family" what seemed like a countless number of times. He sat there as civilly as he could manage, fist dropped into his lap, trying not to think about it, just looking away. Shadow knew what was happening without having to see it, and everyone else seemed to understand that. She sat there somewhat helplessly, but somehow incredibly defensive. She had nothing to do, nothing to say, and yet it was enough to keep everyone satisfied at the moment. She pulled the sun glasses down just enough so that she could see the flames, then placed her hand in them and felt the ungodly burning, a pain beyond pains, and healed herself promptly. It was an act to assure herself she was still there, still alive, that the world hadn't left her behind. An odd sentiment, and a much more interesting action to those who watched. Roan felt very light headed for a moment, seeing her eyes; looking at her actions and seeing those eyes that knew that pain in its various stages... before the shades were pressed back against her head to conceal them once again. Taerlyn wanted so badly to demand what she'd done that for, why she wanted to experience that pain, healing powers or not; but something stopped her. It felt like another wall in front of her question, blocking it from so much as coming out at all. She swallowed and watched Shadow's hidden eyes trail off into a nothingness of deep, unsatisfactory memories and things that haven't happened yet. Evyn shivered again, remembering the lines she had recited moments ago. A great many, countless many things were very disturbing about their journey. For some reason, no more so than those simple words. Something about the flames... something in the flames caught Shadow's attention. For just a split second, less than that really, she saw great huge claws. Dragon claws... her mind suggested softly. They had been there but not there, as so many other things, and she locked them away in her memory without a single acknowledgment. "Are you two going to get any sleep tonight?" she asked kindly. The siblings looked at one another before Evyn answered. "I guess we should try." She nodded. "I'll be alright, as I said. I'm just going to sit up for a little while." He nodded back, certain if she couldn't see it, she could feel it. "Good night then, Shadow." "Goodnight, Evyn." She responded almost with a normal good humor. "Goodnight, Ter." "Good night, Shadow." Taerlyn responded, hoping that she would be alright. Upon that, brother and sister got up and went to their respective beds without another word. Shadow distastefully thought about how she'd find her bed. Worse yet, how would she go to the bathroom in a few hours? She dropped her head just a little and thought. She'd hoped she wasn't missing too much in the glorious stars, as there was nothing but open space all around them and nothing to block their brightness. In the end, she wasn't really all that concerned, but she was definitely rather annoyed. She thought about taking sight for granted, and ultimately decided she never took it for granted, really; she just never made a point to think about it to death before. Her thoughts turned to the journey behind them, the possible journey ahead, and calmed just a little as she heard the siblings' breathing shift into deep, dreamless sleep. Roan saw a wonderful chance to bother the girl, and took it immediately. He scooted closer beside her, close enough for either of them to reach out and give the other a good powerful hit, and stared at her quietly. After several long minutes of staring out into nothing, Shadow finally put the sun glasses atop her head again and looked at him with blind eyes, not seeing him but knowing where he was just the same. "What." It was a devastatingly clear statement. "I did save your life." He responded in a viciously playful voice, a growl emanating from the depths of his throat. "I know." She answered in that same clear, emotionless tone. "I should think you'd be grateful." He pressed. It may have been a blind glare, but it was a slightly above standard wicked look, directed right into and through the demon boy sitting next to her. Instead of attacking, as Roan expected, she simply asked, civilly but still very much annoyed, "You've seen those things before?" He was puzzled at first by no attack, but decided maybe he just needed to try harder. "They were some of Aunger's favorite pets. Bred to cause the most horrible pain and fear during death..." "Why did you learn how to remove the venom?" she interrupted. "Standard teaching." He responded simply. "While the guards were ravaging villages in the fields and valleys, the sand worms were slowly destroying the desert dwellers." He forced a distinct pleasure out of his voice as he talked about the horrors he had seen and taken part in. "Was that one of his pets that bit me?" she asked quietly. He grinned. "No. That one seems to have been a bastard." He paused and watched her closely. "It's fun being helpless, isn't it?" he growled softly, hand reaching silently for the blade which still held a little of the agonizing poison. She didn't know what she had done until she felt the warmth on her fingertips. Apparently to her (and what Roan would piece together as he lay there staring up at her), she had turned and clawed from the back of his neck to as far down on his chest as his clothes allowed, tearing four streams of blood and staining his shirt. She hadn't meant to do it, she honestly hadn't--she had planned simply to growl at him. She only realized then, as she was thinking out what had just happened, that she was growling ferociously, deeply, her teeth exposed in a wolfish display of vengeance. It wasn't that she was at all sorry for her actions, but she almost felt badly about attacking him when she hadn't the real drive to do so. Though, had she allowed him more time, he probably would have given her ample reasons. She forced her lips down and wiped her bloodstained fingers across his already stained shirt, shoving him rather strongly backward. Then, casually rubbing her eyes, she wondered if seeing those dragon claws earlier had anything to do with her actions. It seemed the closer they got to wherever it was they were supposed to go, the more nightmares she had. The more vicious she was becoming, whether she planned to be or not. Roan realized as he healed himself that he shouldn't have been surprised by her actions. He had also begun to see the pattern of her slightly more wicked moments rising. He growled back softly at her, but made no move to return her sentiment. He was still in easy reach of her, after all, and assumed she would not hesitate to kick him, hard. And most likely keep kicking him. Amazingly enough, that otherworldly growl did not wake either Evyn or Taerlyn. They both still lay in their beds, breathing heavily as though nothing had happened. Shadow was glad for that. She sighed deeply, trying to force her heart to slow down, her blood from pulsing excitedly through her body. She so, so very much wanted to kill him. But slowly, painfully... and in a way, it was disturbing even to her. She simply glanced at him with blind eyes, flipped her sunglasses back down, and waited for him to take the hint and go to his bed. He stared at her, unsatisfied with his performance; but decided that was definitely enough for the night. Just wait until the poison passes out of your body... he thought hollowly, standing up and walking to his bed. She sighed. She was thirsty, but she wasn't certain where the water was. She was tired, exhausted, but she didn't really want to sleep. She just wanted to put her hands in the fire again. So, as all went to bed, she placed both hands in the flames and felt them burn. |
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